I don't think that I could conceive for a friend, it would be awkward. If my sister couldn't get pregnant and wanted more children, I would definitely surrogate for her though. If there were some random gay men out there who needed a surrogate, I'd do that too. I wouldn't want to be involved in the childs life most likely because I expect whomever my sperm donor is to have zero paternal rights to the child. I wouldn't want a family to always wonder that I was going to take their kid from them. I hope that there are some good hearted people out there who will indeed give me sperm without strings attached when I'm ready again. I have a feeling we'll end up adopting or going to a (pricey!) sperm bank though because our luck with donors we've happened across hasn't been so successful. If Cole wanted to donate some eggs to someone, I'd let him, but I doubt he'll want to do that. The hormone replacement has surpressed ovulation so he doesn't have any of that anymore (unless he goes off the testosterone).  I don't forsee him ever having any random children out there somewhere in the world.

I would also donate my eggs for money but I'm not the correct weight/body type that they accept. sad because I could use that money! lol

I would GLADLY start this year over. If I could start it over, I'd have Cole move to Minnesota and I'd have continued school there. As long as I could find other employment, which shouldn't have been a problem, things would've been great for us. (minus the snow and cold) I like to think that if I hadn't started this moving frenzy this year I would still be settled and happy, with friends. This has been a really intense year for me with one thing after another falling apart and then trying to put it back together. If I was in Minnesota and still in college there, I would have insurance and I wouldn't have all the medical bills that I have now. I'm happy that Cole and I are living together and aren't doing the long distance thing anymore. I do have second thoughts about whether I should've been the one to move rather than him coming to me. At the time, all the signs said I should move so I went with that. Eh, we live and we learn right?

If I started this day over, I'd have gotten up early so that the dog didn't go pee on the floor. I wasn't impressed with that. Also, I'd have made my cramps go away so that I felt like going to class today. I didn't do anything great today because I started the day in a funky mood.

My dream job is to work with homeless people  or immigrants. I really want to help people get into quality housing and get situated. I am really into advocacy and both of these populations are seriously under-represented by the criminal justice people and social work persons. I added CJ as my minor just so that I can learn more about the law and be able to help people when they need it. Too many people are ignorant of the law and how it can help them when they are in a sore spot. I seriously hope that I can fall into this field whenever I get finished with college.

I plan to move to South Korea and help the English speaking immigrants over there. Consulates always need people to help people get set up in a new place. I can so do that! 

I want for my parents and stepparents to actually be able to retire before they work themselves to death. It seems simple but being from a lower middle class family... it doesn't always work that way. My mom works herself to death, as does my stepdad, just to pay their rent and necessities. They don't work for companies that offer them retirement or things like that. I hope that I can get a good paying job and be able to provide for my mom when she is older and can't work. I want my sister to actually use her degree and become a high school teacher and I want her kids to grow up knowing that there is life outside of the projects that they currently live in. I want my brothers to be good men and do what makes them happiest, whatever that may be. I want to finish school and settle down with my  partner and possibly have some children.

I want my entire family to grow closer as we get older, rather than drifting apart. I want more people to open their eyes to other peoples differences and stop seeing road  blocks when people are different from them. My family has so many barriers in communication simply because they don't want to accept one another because their situation/circumstances are different. It's family, gotta love them all!!

Can you please delete me from your friends list if you notice that the friends arrow is not pointing back at you? If I do not have you as a friend, then I would appreciate being removed from your list. I LJ messaged every person that needs to unfriend me but in case you missed the memo, please delete me now. I have more friends that are not mutual friends than I do have mutual and I would like to not have so many lonely blue arrows on my friends list.

THANKS for UNDERSTANDING!

Just because I want to show you some cute stuff
( pics pics )

The best compliments that I have received have been things such as:
You are amazing
I like how you think
Your laughter is like angels singing


but.. it's the context of the compliment that makes it mean so much to me

For all you postsecret fans out there:

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