Can you please delete me from your friends list if you notice that the friends arrow is not pointing back at you? If I do not have you as a friend, then I would appreciate being removed from your list. I LJ messaged every person that needs to unfriend me but in case you missed the memo, please delete me now. I have more friends that are not mutual friends than I do have mutual and I would like to not have so many lonely blue arrows on my friends list.

THANKS for UNDERSTANDING!

Just because I want to show you some cute stuff
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The best compliments that I have received have been things such as:
You are amazing
I like how you think
Your laughter is like angels singing


but.. it's the context of the compliment that makes it mean so much to me

For all you postsecret fans out there:

ljsecret 

I've been dreaming about the craziest things.. so I'm gonna put it out there so you can tell me your thoughts.

When I went to sleep Monday night I dreamed about vampires. This is probably because of what I was reading all last week. I woke up and was smiling and Cole asked what was wrong and I laughed at him and said nothing. Then I went back to sleep. When I woke up for the day, I was thinking that I was seeing for the first time. I felt a little disoriented but I had the distinct feeling that  I was alive, as if I'd not been before. I vaguely remembered the laughing thing and when Cole woke up he reminded me of it. I think when I was laughing, it was because I thought I was dead and realized I was alive and I was happy. I'm not sure but it was strange nonetheless.

I took a nap yesterday and I dreamed that two very strong men kidnapped me and took me to this dark room behind a pool hall. There was another girl there, also captive, and she was trying to tell me how to behave so  I wouldn't get in trouble. One guy left and the other stayed and he was hitting me and verbally abusive. The girl said this was nothing compared to what the other guy was going to do to me if I didn't behave. She was right. The other, much stronger, guy returned and was throwing me around. Literally, picking me up by my feet and throwing me into the walls and furniture. I was really glad to wake up from it.

This morning I woke up from a dream about coloring. I was shopping with Cole and I wanted to get a particular coloring book  but he wouldn't let me. It was on the top shelf so I had to stretch to reach it. Once I'd get one down he'd take it from me and I'd have to start all over. He was wanting to buy pink & beige pillows for our couch (i guess we lived together in dreamland). I took the pillows and used them as a stool to reach the coloring book. But they were all gone then. So I had no coloring book and a pissy boifriend because I ruined is ugly pillows.  tada. weird!

thoughts?

I'm so excited for Barack Obama to be sworn in. When I think about what this symbolizes for the country, I get weepy. It's so amazing to see this happen in my life time. It's one of those things people always said "not in my lifetime" but here it is happening. I'm so excited to not have to see GW Bush's face everywhere. I'm more excited that my children will be born in a time of unity (i hope) and relatively liberal ideas.


In a random thought - I'm sick. For a few days my throat has been hurting and today I can barely swallow and I've got all sorts of congestion and phlegmy grossness. I'm so exhausted too. boo hiss. AND it's snowing today!

Sometimes it's hard because you know so much. Today you are caught between your desire to tell others what they have been missing and your duty to do as you are told. Blowing the whistle may be the morally correct action, but it might also make life harder on the job. Do what you must for survival and recognize that harsh practicality can outweigh even the greatest ideals.

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If I've learned anything at this job it is that you just shut up and do it... I'm not always good at the shutting up part. We're in a financial crisis right now and there's nothing anyone can do to make any of it better.. you just go with it. it surely doesn't make it better but it's one way to get through the day. bla.

Today I start the new store.
 

If all your DNA is stretched out, it would reach to the moon 6,000 times.