Telling the Truth

Writer's Block: Ohhh, baby

billi.amos@gmail.com — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 17:15:21 GMT

If your best friend asked you OR your partner to help you conceive a child, would you consider it? How do you think it would affect your friendship and your relationship?

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I don't think that I could conceive for a friend, it would be awkward. If my sister couldn't get pregnant and wanted more children, I would definitely surrogate for her though. If there were some random gay men out there who needed a surrogate, I'd do that too. I wouldn't want to be involved in the childs life most likely because I expect whomever my sperm donor is to have zero paternal rights to the child. I wouldn't want a family to always wonder that I was going to take their kid from them. I hope that there are some good hearted people out there who will indeed give me sperm without strings attached when I'm ready again. I have a feeling we'll end up adopting or going to a (pricey!) sperm bank though because our luck with donors we've happened across hasn't been so successful. If Cole wanted to donate some eggs to someone, I'd let him, but I doubt he'll want to do that. The hormone replacement has surpressed ovulation so he doesn't have any of that anymore (unless he goes off the testosterone). I don't forsee him ever having any random children out there somewhere in the world.

I would also donate my eggs for money but I'm not the correct weight/body type that they accept. sad because I could use that money! lol

billi.amos@gmail.com — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 13:42:56 GMT

Happy National Coming Out Day!

Be gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, queer or all the other varieties that you want.
It's your world, be proud of who you are!

Writer's Block: Would you want a do-over?

billi.amos@gmail.com — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 04:01:17 GMT

Given the choice, would you start this day over again? How about this month or this year?

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I would GLADLY start this year over. If I could start it over, I'd have Cole move to Minnesota and I'd have continued school there. As long as I could find other employment, which shouldn't have been a problem, things would've been great for us. (minus the snow and cold) I like to think that if I hadn't started this moving frenzy this year I would still be settled and happy, with friends. This has been a really intense year for me with one thing after another falling apart and then trying to put it back together. If I was in Minnesota and still in college there, I would have insurance and I wouldn't have all the medical bills that I have now. I'm happy that Cole and I are living together and aren't doing the long distance thing anymore. I do have second thoughts about whether I should've been the one to move rather than him coming to me. At the time, all the signs said I should move so I went with that. Eh, we live and we learn right?

If I started this day over, I'd have gotten up early so that the dog didn't go pee on the floor. I wasn't impressed with that. Also, I'd have made my cramps go away so that I felt like going to class today. I didn't do anything great today because I started the day in a funky mood.

Writer's Block: My Dream Job

billi.amos@gmail.com — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 16:12:39 GMT

What is your dream job? Do you think you'll ever have it?

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My dream job is to work with homeless people or immigrants. I really want to help people get into quality housing and get situated. I am really into advocacy and both of these populations are seriously under-represented by the criminal justice people and social work persons. I added CJ as my minor just so that I can learn more about the law and be able to help people when they need it. Too many people are ignorant of the law and how it can help them when they are in a sore spot. I seriously hope that I can fall into this field whenever I get finished with college.

I plan to move to South Korea and help the English speaking immigrants over there. Consulates always need people to help people get set up in a new place. I can so do that!

HAPPY DANCE!

billi.amos@gmail.com — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 17:56:59 GMT

we got the studio apartment and move in next Friday!!

Writer's Block: My Family's Future

billi.amos@gmail.com — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 05:01:47 GMT

What do you most want for your family’s future?

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I want for my parents and stepparents to actually be able to retire before they work themselves to death. It seems simple but being from a lower middle class family... it doesn't always work that way. My mom works herself to death, as does my stepdad, just to pay their rent and necessities. They don't work for companies that offer them retirement or things like that. I hope that I can get a good paying job and be able to provide for my mom when she is older and can't work. I want my sister to actually use her degree and become a high school teacher and I want her kids to grow up knowing that there is life outside of the projects that they currently live in. I want my brothers to be good men and do what makes them happiest, whatever that may be. I want to finish school and settle down with my partner and possibly have some children.

I want my entire family to grow closer as we get older, rather than drifting apart. I want more people to open their eyes to other peoples differences and stop seeing road blocks when people are different from them. My family has so many barriers in communication simply because they don't want to accept one another because their situation/circumstances are different. It's family, gotta love them all!!

Cut.. Cut

billi.amos@gmail.com — Sat, 09 May 2009 21:28:11 GMT

Can you please delete me from your friends list if you notice that the friends arrow is not pointing back at you? If I do not have you as a friend, then I would appreciate being removed from your list. I LJ messaged every person that needs to unfriend me but in case you missed the memo, please delete me now. I have more friends that are not mutual friends than I do have mutual and I would like to not have so many lonely blue arrows on my friends list.

THANKS for UNDERSTANDING!

more pics

billi.amos@gmail.com — Sun, 05 Apr 2009 21:47:52 GMT

Just because I want to show you some cute stuff

my bruiser, Merrique

Kelli likes to smell the grass

I collect Domo dolls. buy me one if you see one i dont have (Halloween, valentine, easter shown here)

I took them to work, they support Snapple!

Writer's Block: Comped

billi.amos@gmail.com — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 02:36:25 GMT

What's the best compliment you've ever received?

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The best compliments that I have received have been things such as:
You are amazing
I like how you think
Your laughter is like angels singing

but.. it's the context of the compliment that makes it mean so much to me

try it out!

billi.amos@gmail.com — Tue, 17 Feb 2009 01:34:26 GMT

For all you postsecret fans out there:

ljsecret

dreams!

billi.amos@gmail.com — Wed, 11 Feb 2009 16:04:57 GMT

I've been dreaming about the craziest things.. so I'm gonna put it out there so you can tell me your thoughts.

When I went to sleep Monday night I dreamed about vampires. This is probably because of what I was reading all last week. I woke up and was smiling and Cole asked what was wrong and I laughed at him and said nothing. Then I went back to sleep. When I woke up for the day, I was thinking that I was seeing for the first time. I felt a little disoriented but I had the distinct feeling that I was alive, as if I'd not been before. I vaguely remembered the laughing thing and when Cole woke up he reminded me of it. I think when I was laughing, it was because I thought I was dead and realized I was alive and I was happy. I'm not sure but it was strange nonetheless.

I took a nap yesterday and I dreamed that two very strong men kidnapped me and took me to this dark room behind a pool hall. There was another girl there, also captive, and she was trying to tell me how to behave so I wouldn't get in trouble. One guy left and the other stayed and he was hitting me and verbally abusive. The girl said this was nothing compared to what the other guy was going to do to me if I didn't behave. She was right. The other, much stronger, guy returned and was throwing me around. Literally, picking me up by my feet and throwing me into the walls and furniture. I was really glad to wake up from it.

This morning I woke up from a dream about coloring. I was shopping with Cole and I wanted to get a particular coloring book but he wouldn't let me. It was on the top shelf so I had to stretch to reach it. Once I'd get one down he'd take it from me and I'd have to start all over. He was wanting to buy pink & beige pillows for our couch (i guess we lived together in dreamland). I took the pillows and used them as a stool to reach the coloring book. But they were all gone then. So I had no coloring book and a pissy boifriend because I ruined is ugly pillows. tada. weird!

thoughts?

on the Eve of Change

billi.amos@gmail.com — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 22:56:11 GMT

I'm so excited for Barack Obama to be sworn in. When I think about what this symbolizes for the country, I get weepy. It's so amazing to see this happen in my life time. It's one of those things people always said "not in my lifetime" but here it is happening. I'm so excited to not have to see GW Bush's face everywhere. I'm more excited that my children will be born in a time of unity (i hope) and relatively liberal ideas.

In a random thought - I'm sick. For a few days my throat has been hurting and today I can barely swallow and I've got all sorts of congestion and phlegmy grossness. I'm so exhausted too. boo hiss. AND it's snowing today!

billi.amos@gmail.com — Sat, 06 Dec 2008 10:47:28 GMT

Sometimes it's hard because you know so much. Today you are caught between your desire to tell others what they have been missing and your duty to do as you are told. Blowing the whistle may be the morally correct action, but it might also make life harder on the job. Do what you must for survival and recognize that harsh practicality can outweigh even the greatest ideals.

* * *

If I've learned anything at this job it is that you just shut up and do it... I'm not always good at the shutting up part. We're in a financial crisis right now and there's nothing anyone can do to make any of it better.. you just go with it. it surely doesn't make it better but it's one way to get through the day. bla.

Today I start the new store.

so.. yea

billi.amos@gmail.com — Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:57:31 GMT

If all your DNA is stretched out, it would reach to the moon 6,000 times.

billi.amos@gmail.com — Tue, 25 Nov 2008 17:32:25 GMT

thanks LJ for making stupid communities that bring people together... namely butchfemme

without you, i'd have not met the amazing Cole!

Who says LiveJournal isn't amazing? Lies, I tell you.

LJ is where it's at!

billi.amos@gmail.com — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 10:52:56 GMT

It's Transgender Day of Remembrance, people!

Take some time today to think about the people who've been hurt because of anti-trans thinking.
This is ridiculous and it HAS to STOP

Santogold singing Starstruck

billi.amos@gmail.com — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 03:22:50 GMT

I love this song!

YAY

billi.amos@gmail.com — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 11:00:51 GMT

If the last person you dated said they were in love with you, what would you say?
define date exactly. If the last person I was "involved with" said that they were in love with me, I'd say we've got a lot to work on

You're trapped in a room for 3 days with your worst enemy, what do you do?
talk a lot

Do you think your most recent ex thinks about you?
she thinks that I'm too serious, I'm sure

Are you currently frustrated with a boy/girl?
Yea, sorta, but it's getting easier

Have a best friend?
yep

How have you felt today?
it's early, i'm still tired

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
Lonely

Are you a forgiving person?
too much so!! people like to take advantage

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
Yea

Last time you laughed?
at work yesterday when I was texting Steph

Last argument?
can't recall

How many people of the opposite sex have made you cry?
two

Are you missing anyone at the moment?
yes

Why did you last cry?
I was frustrated with myself and the situation & nikki wasn't helping much

When was the last time you had butterflies?
It was Saturday

What made you happy today?
waking up!

What are you thinking about right now?
going to work

Where will you be in an hour?
working

Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
Absolutely

Are you happy right now?
mostly

Are you a jealous person?
Not usually

Do you like someone that doesn't know you like them?
No

How has the week been?
it's the beginning of my week so let's hope it's better than last week!

What would you do if your best guy friend said he was gay?
My best guy friend is trans and married, if he were gay, I'd be confused

Someone leaves a note and flowers on your car, cute or tacky?
Totally cute

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yes

Alright, so have you ever actually sat down and thought about why you like the person you like?
Yes, and I've decided that it's okay to act stupid when you care about someone

Suppose you see your boyfriend or girlfriend kissing someone else?
it depends on our agreement

Would you rather have jet black hair or cherry red hair?
cherry red

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Not so much

Are you mad at anyone?
mad isn't the word I'd use

i'm bored

billi.amos@gmail.com — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 18:53:18 GMT

Interested in anyone at the moment?
nope

Do they know it?
there's no one of interest to know

What will you do this weekend?
tonight = twilight and tomorrow = PI

Are you in a good mood right now?
eh not too great

Do you need to say anything to someone?
nope

How old is the first person on your top friends?
25

Have you kissed someone in the last 3 days?
nope

Has anyone ever told you they loved you?
yep, i've reduced that word to a lie

Do you believe in true love?
i wish i didn't

Does the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?
i don't know

Could you go a day without eating?
yea

Are you missing someone?
my peeps

Do you think you'll be in a relationship 3 months from now?
no

Are you typically a jealous person?
not really

Are you a cuddler?
yes

Something happen today that made you angry?
no

How has this past week been for you?
it's been an emotional rollercoaster

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
nope

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
yes

What time did you wake up this morning?
4am

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
ye

Do you regret anything in your past?
no

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
yes but some things take a long time

Whose bed besides your own did you sleep in last?
uhm. Tristia's probably

Are you happy with your life at the moment?
not today, but I'm getting there

Who was the last person to tell you they love you?
mom

Did you go outside for more then 30 minutes today?
no

'What's the last thing you said aloud?
it's afternoon

How's your hair looking?
it's looking like ponytails today

Do you have anything that belongs to your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
yes

When was the last time you were really confused?
Monday

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
yes

Do you tell your boyfriend/girlfriend that you love them?
if i love someone, i tell them

How do you know the last person you were in a car with?
she's my best friend for life

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
hell no, i'll probably be sleeping til ten

Has your best friend ever seen you naked?
yes

Did you kiss or make out with anyone today?
no but there's potential

Would you like to put a certain night on repeat and live it forever?
yea..

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
i dunno. i'm getting old, so there might be no babies for B

Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?
hah. my life would have to follow diff path than the one i've set for it

Whats the cutest IM you've recieved within the past 10 minutes?
not messaging

What do you wear to bed?
whatevers comfy

Who are you closest to in your family?
mom, Karissa

Have you ever snuggled with someone you weren't dating?
yes

When was the last time you and an opposite sex hugged?
Tom held me the other day

If you could change your eye color would you?
no

Who did you last get into a big argument with?
work

When will your next kiss be?
i dunno

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
working

Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
i prefer long

Is there someone you'd like to fix things with?
no

Last time someone yelled at you?
it's been a long long time

What did/will you do this afternoon?
it's afternoon now and i'm going to shop

Do you see what I see

billi.amos@gmail.com — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 10:50:34 GMT

The first Minnesota snow! It's not much, it's pretty for now.

I am sure I'll hate it in about 2 hrs when I'm mopping the floors. Ugh.

GOOD MORNING MINNESOTA!

billi.amos@gmail.com — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 21:21:45 GMT

i want to quit my job and move to the coast

as if you didn't know already..

billi.amos@gmail.com — Wed, 05 Nov 2008 10:12:57 GMT

Barack Obama was elected president last night! It's such an exciting time for the US right now and for once I'm glad to be here for it. There is hope for the future. We're not really a bunch of conservative white folks. The people have spoken and elected a president who didn't fit the mold. There's hope.. women will be elected president one day.. maybe a LGBT person eventually too.

I generally have no respect or pride for the US but right now I do. I'm so happy that I'm able to experience such a change.

yay for music!

billi.amos@gmail.com — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 20:17:07 GMT

stolen from jjblue

Set you mp3 player on shuffle. Write down the first lines of the first 15 songs. Ask your LJ friends to guess the songs.

1. One more year and I'll be heading out on my own..
2. I'm lost in an ocean far away from home..
3. You think you're special, you do, I can see it in your eyes..
4. Hey babygirl I been watchin you all day..
5. This just in, where to begin..
6. In your life you seem to have it all, you seem to have control..
7. Is it me or does it seem life just carries on..
8. I fall down in the street, I need somebody to help me to my feet..
9. It's true that I'm a silvershadow, and you are always on my mind..
10. Found myself today singing your name outloud..
11. I fly like paper, get high like planes..
12. Express yourself, don't repress yourself..
13. I am still livin with your ghost..
14. Anywhere you go, anyone you leave..
15. I am trying to read your mind..

another domo adventure

billi.amos@gmail.com — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 20:02:12 GMT

He met the friends & had a great time!

Domo devil on the stove!

nikki is giving domo some mono! lol

Domo with dinner!

they act like he's theirs or something! MINE!

Jacki showing domo how to eat kitty! nikki not so impressed

Domo = face down in Jacki!

Tristia + Domo = love

Domo & Stappy in bed.

woo

billi.amos@gmail.com — Tue, 28 Oct 2008 02:09:46 GMT

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety!

What is your favorite..
gum: stride mandarin orange
restaurant: badawest in flint, michigan
drink: long beach (alcoholic) sweet tea (non alcoholic)
season: fall
type of weather: chilly but not cold, sunny
emotion: giddy
thing to do on a half day: picnic!
late-night activity: talking over coffee
sport: women's football
city: minneapolis
store: The Afternoon
When was the last time you..
cried: yesterday
played a sport: haha forever ago
laughed: today
hugged someone: yesterday
kissed someone: it's been quite some time
felt depressed: earlier today
felt elated: yesterday
felt overworked: most days
faked sick: years
lied: it's been a while
What was the last..
word you said: bye
thing you ate: applebees - penne pasta
song you listened to: currently - Heard the World by O.A.R.
thing you drank: hot tea
place you went to: Applebee's
movie you saw: Tipping the Velvet
movie you rented: i don't rent, i borrow
concert you attended: Rock Band Live - P!atd, Dashboard, Plain White T's
Who was the last person you..
hugged: Craig
cried over: CMC
kissed: JSH
danced with: friends at the bar
shared a secret with: Tristia
had a sleepover with: Amanda
called: Cole!
went to a movie with: Tristia
saw: Tristia
were angry with: S
couldn't take your eyes off of: literally, i don't recall
obsessed over: I'm not obsessed
Have you ever..
danced in the rain: yep, in the middle of the road at a red light
kissed someone: yes
done drugs: yes
drank alcohol: yes
slept around: define slept around..
partied 'til the sun came up: yes
had a movie marathon: yes
gone too far on a dare: yes, but only once. i was stupid
spun until you were immensely dizzy: no, i'd throw up
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