April 2nd, 2004

tea time

horoscopes.. GRR

On the 1st and 2nd, a current love interest learns more about a previous relationship. If everyone is lucky, this just makes the subject of these stories more interesting. The 3rd and 4th find you socializing with wonderful people. On the other hand, attempts to win hearts and minds might be misunderstood on the 5th and 6th. Then the 7th launches a week and a half when it's truly all about you. You're important to the right person. He or she will gladly wait. Nobody hurts anybody else, especially on the 11th and 12th when present and future are all one big, happy blur. Love centers around song and dance between the 15th and 17th, whether at clubs, weddings or other public celebrations of romance and community. For better or worse, you need privacy on the 18th and 19th. Two people answer each other's questions without distraction. Everyone is grinning between the 20th and 22nd, some with secrets, others with common knowledge. By all logic, this happy state of affairs should continue, but from the 23rd to 29th you have the nagging feeling that something isn't exactly right. The 30th hands you a golden opportunity to be true to yourself
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Excess isn't for you. It's okay to refuse. Someone has to keep a grip on reality. You'll have to be very, very nice at work today -- even if it's the last thing on earth you really want to do. The good news is that you'll be richly rewarded for your efforts -- and soon, too
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Yea, so what do you guys think?! i really hope that today is a good day, because I want to have fun tonight when i go out. i also want to have fun tomorrow at the banquet/and my party. OH! did i mention i was nominated for student leader of the year?!! isn't that just fabulous.. and I am taking my aunt as my date.. caid is gonna be out of town and well, my friends are all either already going or working. So, its fun times. I love her anyway and it will be fun for all of us.
i am learning a lot about myself right now, I guess Kyle had a point after all. I see different roles in myself, and it's really weird. Looking at myself through my own eyes is really amazing. I see a lot of things that I never noticed, and I lot of things I am ashamed of. I guess I better get to work on improving myself for Ms. Right lol. I was talking to Caid last night and we talked about all sorts of things, and the roles I am in now. Its interesting really, to try and be a different side of yourself that you have repressed. Learning to be someone you thought you werent.. caid says just enjoy these things.. dont worry about why i'm this way or whats happening. just enjoy my experiences. Eh, he has a point, its just weird sometimes. All these self discoveries flowing at me. I dont want to be myself sometimes, b/c i dont like what i see myself doing/feeling. Being in a relationship i guess i always felt validated and like things were always ok, no matter what i did. roxanne said its no big deal, so that was the final say. you know what? things arent always going to be okay and sometimes you have to think outside of yourself. dont appear this way, dont act that way, a person has to know what is appropriate. I was spoiled and let myself do a lot of selfish things. im not a selfish person though, well, sometimes i guess.. and i like the me i see emerging. I want to be this adult person that i envison. I dont have to stay the same forever. I am free to change. CARPE DIEM, as kyle wrote in my book, and dont be afraid of change. EMBRACE THIS!
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