November 4th, 2005

tea time

waking up to a new day

another new day but there is no assurance that today will be better than yesterday or even equally as productive/unproductive. i know that i made a new friend last night and that makes me smile. i feel like i might have acted out a little and i hope that isn't held against me in the future. I have a hard time building new relationships sometimes because i dont know how people react.
anyway, i was made aware that i alienate folks when i speak up to much. it gets really frustrating to feel like i am always correcting/educating people and to feel like they dont HEAR what the fuck i am saying. its even worse when i address a legitimate concern and people tell me its the wrong time to discuss it or just blow me off in general like what i was saying didnt matter to them at all. i realize my thoughts arent everyone and the majority of the time people might not want to hear what comes out of my mouth.. that does NOT mean that i will shut up and stand by though. I can't do that. If i think you did something that is offensive or you said something that was wrong, i will tell you. if I feel that you are purposefully holding people back/keeping them out of the look I will be sure to let you know. this does not mean that i am militant. this does not mean that i am angry. this means that i give a shit about humans and i want them to be treated equally and have the same opportunities that you/we get every day.
I really enjoyed our after party conversation. it made me smile. sorry i got tired, it was fuckin midnight. i am so tired still. (good thing marshay is opening the cafe so i got to sleep in just a bit.) I like hearing those stories about people different from me. It interests me so much to read about people that dont hold their queerness out for all to see. its so interesting to know folks who dont think that their identity is 'that important' or something that they should discuss with others. i guess that for me talking solves a lot of issues. but its not for everyone.
okie, i really have to brush my hair and get my ass to work.
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kitties on a rampage

the other day Gaz went pee in the OLD litterbox. I don't know why. He just walked into the uncovered, old box and pissed. I was like WTF is going on. I think that he was mad b/c tristia hadn't cleaned out their new one yet ( a nice covered sifting one) and so he remembered we still had the old one. I dunno. it was funny but stinky, too. I was telling a friend about it and he said that animals dont get mad at humans like humans get mad at one another. lol. i dont know if i agree with that. i mean, i know when they need loving and food and all that just by how they cry to me. how can i say that he randomly pissed in an empty litterbox? i think he was making a point 'clean it bitch or else'. LOL.
what do you think about this? do animals retaliate against their owners?
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