January 17th, 2006

tea time


I have been feeling weird today and I don't know why. I just feel like ugh and want to cry. It's strange. I worked 8 hrs at the YW and then off to Speedway to do paperwork and shit. They are putting me right to work, without any real training. I feel particularly confused on closing/opening procedures. AHH. I hate feeling stupid going into this.I have worked for that damn company for a very long time. I feel so lost already. Life is gonna be INTIRELY busy for the next few months. I need this though. At least it won't be time wasted. Tristia isn't in a lovey mood and that sort of made me sadder. I came home and just wanted to cuddle with her and kiss her. Oh well. She redid the house today. Everything looks so fantastic. I love her. I want to move already. When I think about how much bullshit there is going on right now, I can't help but want to run. I just want to get the fuck out already. Meet some new people and have a great time.
I start class tonight - Childrens Literature. I really hope that the teacher doesn't keep us the full 3 hours. That would really be sad.
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