looks like it's going to be a rocky one, readers. We are officially broken up. Not a break - a break up. she has things she needs to figure out and I suppose in the mean time I can find a new side of myself as well. It's not easy, it's the most difficult thing I've done to date. I love her so much and I know that she loves me. Its sad. We aren't even angry or fighting, it's just sorrowful. Today is our last day together. trying to make it something special but I don' t know what to do. even if i sit and stare at her all day i know i couldn't forget this day for anything. It hurts.