Liz came over this morning with flowers. Nice pretty crazy full bloomed flowers. I love the flowers that are crazy colors. They are beautiful. First real smile in I don't know how long. I'm listening to Ben Lee instead of Ani. You will all be impressed. Day 2: so far so good. What is it I always say 'Don't complain about the things you cannot change'. I read that somewhere and have dedicated myself to that. So, I can't change my current situation I just have to adapt. By Day 3 I shall be a much stronger much more motivated person. I have set myself a limit for this patheticness that is me right now. I will prevail. Did it before, will do it now. Send me happy thoughts and inner strength!