there are a million things going on and i wish that i could make sense of all of it so that people could understand me. i wish i understood more about my situation than just my feelings. i suppose it's better to know your feelings than anything else. I have mastered my feelings. I know how i feel and what i want. i know i am going to be happy. i am going on adventures and leaping into the unexpected. I will love it though. If I fall on my face at least I can say that I had the experience, right? But I only see me going UP from here. I can't hurt like that ever again.