Do I put more effort into my activism than I do into caring for people I know? I know that sounds a little crazy but I wonder. I know that sometimes I am so busy with this and that and I don't even have time for my friends. Is that fair to them, is it fair to me? Am I selling myself short because I want to achieve so much and help out so many different causes? Avoidance.. dont deal with real issues that concern myself specifically, just do activism in a broad way so that i am helping someone/something!? What the fuck?!
Am i losing it? i am very bogged down this time of year. I have like NO money and $400 in bills due and i just want to cry. I hate feeling helpless to myself. ok, i gotta go do some stuff. i got a gmail account so i am setting that up.
THANKS everyone for coming to my dinner on Friday. i really enjoyed all the laughter and sex jokes!