I just ran through some random diaries and i came upon technodyke.. her entry from a few days ago about her and her girl Amy.. touched me deeply. It was like she found words to say things i had been thinking about roxanne. it was amazing that someone else is coming to these same realizations and happy thoughts. thru the pain there is some sunshine.. it just takes a while. there is always a happy side to things even when it seems not. so yea that is that.. read her entry march 20.